Kim, today you would've been 50. I wish you could be here. We all miss you every day.
I do appreciate the hearts that you've been sending me since you left, all these years. You've sent more of them the last few weeks, leading up to your birthday. I do believe that that's deliberate, because you know we think of you even more at this time, and miss you even more.
There was the fried fish crumb...
...the heart in the potato chip...
...the chicken strip crumb...
...the blob of jelly...
...and the hole in my toast.
Some people would say that I'm just looking for these things, but I've loved hearts my whole life and didn't see them until you were gone. Maybe some of them are from other people we've loved and lost, but I do believe that the ones recently (and many others) have been from you.
What do these mean? Some would say, "You eat too many carbs and fried foods?" Ha ha. Nah, I just haven't happened to see things in my vegetables and my glasses of water. I do believe that you are trying to send me signs of your love, so that I can know that you are thinking of us all and so that I can share that message of hope with Mum, and with others online who are grieving.
I know that you wish the best for all of us. We wish you could be here to help us all (especially Mum and Ethan) through these trying times.
We will always miss you and love you, dear sister. Please watch over us, and we will see you again someday.
Love,
Chris