This is our late sister Kim, filled with joy about the snow when she came home for a visit one time. I wish I could feel like that.
I keep feeling shocked that she is gone. People would be surprised that you can still feel shock about losing someone, even though next month it will be 5 years that she has been gone. Mum isn't surprised that I feel this way, because she said she feels the same way.
I sometimes let my guard down, like when getting up in the middle of the night or just turning off all sound or devices during the afternoon, and I find myself in complete shock when I realize that she is gone. I guess it will never stop shocking me, because she was so full of life and loving life.
I wanted to write more today, but I don't have time. I just wanted to say - Happy Birthday, Kim - we love you!