[I know that I shouldn't post pics of other people's children (my nephew), but this is five years old, so maybe it's okay, and Kim looks so great that I just had to use it.]
Kim,
Our wonderful sister, five years have passed and I still can't even believe that you are gone. It feels like a bad dream, the time when you were sick and leaving us and the times since, and now, without you. It can't be true.
My heart keeps breaking, over and over. We all miss your laugh, your smile, your positivity, the enjoyment you got out of life. We miss your knowledge, your expertise, your help with our health problems.
Ethan misses you. Of course he would miss his wonderful, loving mom. He tries so hard to escape (with video games (me, too)) and he tries to be okay, but he will never have what he once did - the security of your love, your embrace, and all of the fun you and he had together.
Mum is the most brokenhearted of us all. She is a strong woman, but this absolutely breaks her into pieces, forever. You were her favorite, as we all knew. It's very hard for her to go on, but she does it to help your son and others, and to honor your memory (because she knows you would want her to be okay, as much as possible).
Many people miss you. You had a lot of friends. So many people loved you, and still do.
I just don't know what to say other than it still hurts so, so much that you are gone. Some of us are forever changed, forever grieving. We know you wouldn't want that, but we can't help it. We try to move on and be okay, but it doesn't ever completely happen. I don't think it ever will.
Please send us some strength, so we can be okay.
Love,
Chris