This is my first blog and my first post. I named
it 'Christina Bambina says...' because my sister
Kim liked that name when it used to be my
email address.
I still can't believe she's gone. Kim (Wetzler)
Saxe, N.D. She was only 42. She died
November 14, 2012, after a short battle with
an aggressive cancer. She left behind a
wonderful 5-year-old son. He's really hurting
right now, as you would imagine.
So many bad people (who hurt other people)
are still here on this planet, but a good person
(Kim) who helped other people, is not. I know
that's true in the case of many people who pass
on too soon (including children). It's just not
right.
My sister Juli planned the whole memorial, and
she did a really amazing job. It was as beautiful
as any memorial could be. There was a photo
slideshow of Kim, music, and food that looked
really nice. Juli spent many days putting together that
slideshow, which I know was really hard to do.
I don't like being around people very much, so
the memorial was doubly difficult for me. It
was heartwarming, though, to hear from all of
Kim's friends and patients just how much she
meant to them. She really was an incredible
woman.
Many of us (including our mom) have been
brokenhearted since Kim has been gone. I feel
like some part of me will never truly believe that
she is gone. It just doesn't feel right, and it
never will.
We are all trying hard to be there for Kim's son
Ethan whenever we can, and make him feel
loved and cared for. Kim and Ethan were
really close and he loved her so, so much. He
misses her a lot.
I keep telling myself that I need to honor Kim's
memory by getting myself healthy,
accomplishing the things I want to accomplish,
and enjoying every day that I have, but it's been
hard to do that. I just keep trying every day.
That's the best that I can do.