The reason that I keep blogging about my grief is that I think it helps me (a little bit) and I maybe it could help someone else who is going through the same thing. I hope it does help other people, even if just in some small way.
My sister Kim died two years ago today. Many of us are still dealing with severe emotional pain. It doesn't seem to get that much easier. I'm never going to completely accept it, understand it, or believe it. It just will never make sense to me.
It's not fair to Kim's son to have lost his loving mother, and it's not fair to our mother to have lost such a young daughter. But I know that life isn't fair, and many people experience this same type of loss.
I'm always wishing that all of the good people who are gone could come back, and all of the evil people in this world could leave and take their place in the afterlife. I know, all of the wishing I do won't bring Kim back. Many of us - her son, her mother, her sisters, and her friends and others are all missing her terribly.
I wish I could say that I'm getting past this grief. I think that I never really will. I have to learn to live with it, and I'm still working on that. I just feel that such a serious type of loss like this is one that you never really get over.
To others who are going through the same thing, I wish you peace.